I am no fool and know I have a way to go, and sometimes I am at the point of giving up, believing what is the use of even trying for I have been knocked down so many -too many - times right now, after wiping the dust off and getting up again. Along the line, I will share something personal and raw in a blog post, it is not to garner pity, but to hopefully help others realize that they are not alone, no matter how much the hurt, how deep the strife.
Maybe, just maybe, that it opens up that light at the end of their tunnel, even if it is a pinprick. Even if it is just one person. You may think this is foolish and silly, melodramatic, even pathetic that I share this with complete strangers. That is your prerogative and opinion.
I don't know who it will touch, for many of us do not vocalize what darkness they ARE facing in their lives, whether because they do not want to bother any one with it, feel that no one truly cares, don't want to appear weak, viewed as a failure, or any of hundreds of different reasons.
The bottom line is, regarding future blog posts, no matter your faith, I ask and hope you will read (or listen if I am sharing a podcast or song) all the way through.
Even if you feel the message is not for you at this time in your life, please pay-it-forward; for some one else it very well could be. I have been told we do not know what we are made of, nor are apt to want to discover it, when we are on "top of the mountain." But I firmly believe that it will give some one on the receiving end strength to make it one more day.
Mind you, it is not the "feel-good, its all going to be all right as long as you 'yes' to Jesus and pay your tithe" superficial message; none of his recordings are. To me, that is not what will help the lost and hurting. It is condescending, and risks making them believe there is something wrong with them, and decide that "God must not love me" or "God must not exist" because the burdens do not magically disappear, never to come again.
It takes effort from the individual to get up again, but one needs to stop, hush, be still and take time to listen and find what he/she is made of, how to go on, how to start over when needed.
I strive to remember that God will always walk beside me. He WILL catch me, carry me, when I fall as long as I am willing to reach out my hand to Him. Yet, I am only human, weak to outside influences, and to the natural human condition, as well as insisting I should rely on no one but myself.
And I pay the price.
Shout out to human extradoinnaire, Dennis J Fontanna of The Adult Church :
Thank you, Dennis, from helping me through one of the very darkests point of my life, and enabling
me to laugh from the heart again.